something to say which demonstrates a little willingness on your part to admit there are areas you could be doing much better in, there are activities you have participated in that could have harmed the entire movement if things had come out; there are things you should be doing and aren't, then we can reason together. Look around you. People need you and your leadership. But there are many ways to lead and only one way to be a great leader. (I am quite willing to acknowledge my shortcomings but until the writer or someone else steps forward and indicates both the ability and the willingness to take over the bur- den I'll just muddle on as best I can damaging people as I go and mak- ing my almost insignificant efforts in behalf of FPs everywhere. Do I hear any nominations? V)

I do admit to attacking you more vehemently than is warranted. I wanted to make sure that the noise caused you to react and hopefully now to take a good long look at yourself and what you are doing. Sec- ondly the people that adore you the most are the ones who you hurt the most by your attitude. By pulling you down off your pedestal from time to time it gives these people a little perspective. They shouldn't idolize you, me, God, the Pope, Jesus Christ or anybody. We are all just people and we should work together. Sure some lead and others follow but every follower is as important as the leader and until you know this, deep down in your guts, you will never be as effective as you should be. Show a little gratitude to those around you. Keep your touch of paranoia hidden, your touch of egotism hidden, it doesn't become you. (I will if you will, friend, I think both of yours have pro- truded quite a bit in this diatribe. However I do agree with him that people should not "idolize" me. I neither want it, need it nor feel comfortable with it, but also I don't know anyone that does. I do know a lot such as the writers of the letters just prior to this one who appreciate the efforts I have made and I'd be less than human if I didn't acknowledge that their letters of thanks rather warm the cockles of my heart particularly after a barrage like this letter, but adoration, and idolizing, no please. I too am just a “people” and surely if I didn't feel "way down in my guts” that those for whom I write, with whom I counsel and to whom I extend my help and friendship were just as worthy as I am then for heavens sake why do I take the time and put forth the effort? — V)

P.S. I think I must have masochistic tendencies because I really am anticipating your next letter. (I think I must have sadistic tendencies because I'm not going to waste time going into all the above so she will miss that satisfaction. Besides by her own statement, "it won't matter anyway" if I did blast her. Really I have better and more helpful things to take up my time than such polemics ·

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